Too Much
It lends itself that in certain areas of life one constantly has far too many decisions, and in other areas not enough. And then there are the times when choice doesn't even exist and you have to go along for the ride-no matter how much it sucks.
As a second semester senior one would expect life to be thrillingly easy, and totally fun, but it would seem that whoever has say in that matter decided to go in another direction. Okay, so econ is a total joke, and despite the looming financial portfolio-which frankly is the least of my worries and the easiest of my problems-I have the least amount of work possible for that class. As for APBio, well, I'm not taking the aptest so there is no need to do anything, now is there? Yet she spend every class doing review, which is totally boring and I can't even zone out that much in case she calls on me, although I tend to go blank whenever I get asked a question in bio so it's not like I would know the answer. She asked what denaturation was and I had no idea even though I totally know the word, plus if I hadn't frozen up and hadn't known the word I could still have looked at the roots and easily be able to say what it was. Whatever, I was the only one in the class to know what Chlorosis was so hurrah for me.
Then there's APLit. Well, I am taking the APtest, so I suppose that review is necessary...just not such strenuous review as presrcibed and induced by Ms. Holland. It is essentially the kind of situation where I can't decide if we are over doing it or under doing it because although she beats us like a dead horse I still feel like she hasn't really told us anything at the same time. And then there is the recomended review dates, which occur on the weekends and during tutorials, which frankly I have no interest in attending. As long as I pass the exam I will be more than thrilled, and while I know it isn't the same exact material as the APComp test I easily passed that so there's that.
Unfortunately that hardly covers all my problems.
Then there is the issue of what to do with my time during the summer. Class in the morning is a must 2-3 days a week, but that is no big deal. Its what to do with my time otherwise that is rather unsettling. The production of Romeo & Juliet directed by Julianna is something I would love to be a part of (mercutio anyone?) and I could most likely get what I have my eyes set on, plus Casey and definitly Mariel are auditioning as well so it would be great to spend time over the summer with them. All this is good and well, but Dad also found an open call for History Boys in the city which he really wants me to go out for, and while it is a big opportunity there are also reasons for me to feel iffy about it. One, I probably couldnt do R&J then, so I would have to forfeit that; two, if I chose it then didn't get a part that would really blow; 3, it's incredibly daunting. I mean if I did get a role then it could open A LOT of doors for me and frankly alter my life a lot, but theres still an 'if'.
This doesn't even touch on everything, but it's all I have the mind to discuss at the moment....oy